Confused and stuck in the middle

So I am wondering if I'm making a mistake or not, I am so screwed up by past relationships that I automatically assume the worst. For example women fall in love with what they hear, and men lie about what they say. Well he says everything I want to hear, and makes me believe it. Yet in the back of my mind, I'm screaming. In the back of my mind I'm convinced I'm being used. I sit here and pick myself apart, wondering what my flaws are. I talk to him, I get nothing but compliments. Yet again I'm screaming in the back of my mind to RUN! How much longer before he walks away too? How much longer before he changes? How much longer before you realize your being used? You messed up girl! You gave in too soon, so what if you haven't since. You gave in too soon and he's not even your partner, he's just waiting for you to give in a little more. Well this is what I have to say to the little voice screaming. "SHUT UP! He tells me what I like to hear, I feel comfortable, and I SMILE! So what if it's momentary, so what if he leaves the next day, so what if he says it was just some fun! SO WHAT! The fact is girl, is that you got to experience it! So enjoy it while it last and maybe you'll be surprised by how long it lasts. After all he did hold your hand in public."

Random dream or possible future?

As the sunrises it comes through the window spotlighting a white comforter with green pokadots. A woman awakes her partner sound asleep by her side. She looks down at the foot of the bed where her little puppy flutters in his dream land. Soon a shadow disrupts the ever growing natural light followed by a meow from her best furry friend. The furry feline jumps down unblocking the light; he nuzzles her hand pushing it towards her stomach. Her hand rubs her tummy with a new found miracle growing inside her, she smiles and looks towards her sleeping partner. That's where I woke up, I have had this dream several times but never have I seen the person sleeping next to me. I just love the feeling I get from this dream, it feels blissful and happy. After such a sweet happy dream I awake to seven monsters terrorizing me, and an alarm screaming at me. Then I head off to work to get pushed around, picked apart, and left to deal with the wrath of others. It seems so unfair that the universe would bless me with such an amazing dream and curse me with horrible days. Anyways after work I come home, ALONE, where I shut myself away due to lack of companionship. So depressing. Besides that I know some questions are gonna be like: Q: Do you have a ring? A: Not sure the dream is becoming more vivid but I should know soon with how often it repeats.  Q: Do you know how far along you are in the dream? A: Yes, a positive six months, and I am unsure of how I know that. Q: Could you be pregnant now? A: I am not I have taken a test, and judging by the warmth in the dream I would say if this were to be reality it would happen next year or years from now. If you have any other questions comment.